Then,
holdingtightly to the carpet-bag which contained "all
her
worldly goods," she followed him into the house.
CHAPTER III
Marilla Cuthbert is Surprised
Marilla came
briskly forward as Matthew opened the door.
But when her eyes fell of the odd little figure in the
stiff, ugly dress, with the long braids of red hair and the
eager,
luminous eyes, she stopped short in amazement.
"Matthew Cuthbert, who's that?" she ejaculated. "Where is
the boy?"
"There wasn't any boy," said Matthew wretchedly. "There was
only HER."
He nodded at the child, remembering that he had never even
asked her name.
"No boy! But there MUST have been a boy," insisted Marilla.
"We sent word to Mrs. Spencer to bring a boy."
"Well, she didn't. She brought HER. I asked the station-
master. And I had to bring her home. She couldn't be left
there, no matter where the mistake had come in."
"Well, this is a pretty piece of business!" ejaculated Marilla.
During this dialogue the child had remained silent, her eyes
roving from one to the other, all the animation fading out
of her face. Suddenly she seemed to grasp the full meaning
of what had been said. Dropping her precious carpet-bag she
sprang forward a step and clasped her hands.
"You don't want me!" she cried. "You don't want me because
I'm not a boy! I might have expected it. Nobody ever did
want me. I might have known it was all too beautiful to last.
I might have known nobody really did want me. Oh, what shall
I do? I'm going to burst into tears!"
Burst into tears she did. Sitting down on a chair by the
table, flinging her arms out upon it, and burying her face
in them, she proceeded to cry stormily. Marilla and Matthew
looked at each other deprecatingly across the stove.
Neither of them knew what to say or do. Finally Marilla
stepped lamely into the breach.
"Well, well, there's no need to cry so about it."
"Yes, there IS need!" The child raised her head quickly,
revealing a tear-stained face and trembling lips. "YOU
would cry, too, if you were an
orphan and had come to a
place you thought was going to be home and found that they
didn't want you because you weren't a boy. Oh, this is the
most TRAGICAL thing that ever happened to me!"
Something like a
reluctant smile, rather rusty from long
disuse, mellowed Marilla's grim expression.
"Well, don't cry any more. We're not going to turn you out-
of-doors to-night. You'll have to stay here until we
investigate this affair. What's your name?"
The child hesitated for a moment.
"Will you please call me Cordelia?" she said eagerly.
"CALL you Cordelia? Is that your name?"
"No-o-o, it's not exactly my name, but I would love to be
called Cordelia. It's such a
perfectlyelegant name."
"I don't know what on earth you mean. If Cordelia isn't
your name, what is?"
"Anne Shirley,"
reluctantly faltered forth the owner of that
name, "but, oh, please do call me Cordelia. It can't matter
much to you what you call me if I'm only going to be here a
little while, can it? And Anne is such an unromantic name."
"Unromantic fiddlesticks!" said the unsympathetic Marilla.
"Anne is a real good plain
sensible name. You've no need to
be
ashamed of it."
"Oh, I'm not
ashamed of it," explained Anne, "only I like
Cordelia better. I've always imagined that my name was
Cordelia--at least, I always have of late years. When I was
young I used to imagine it was Geraldine, but I like
Cordelia better now. But if you call me Anne please call me
Anne spelled with an E."
"What difference does it make how it's spelled?" asked Marilla
with another rusty smile as she picked up the teapot.
"Oh, it makes SUCH a difference. It LOOKS so much nicer.
When you hear a name
pronounced can't you always see it in
your mind, just as if it was printed out? I can; and A-n-n
looks
dreadful, but A-n-n-e looks so much more distinguished.
If you'll only call me Anne spelled with an E I shall try to
reconcile myself to not being called Cordelia."
"Very well, then, Anne spelled with an E, can you tell us how
this mistake came to be made? We sent word to Mrs. Spencer
to bring us a boy. Were there no boys at the
asylum?"
"Oh, yes, there was an
abundance of them. But Mrs. Spencer
said DISTINCTLY that you wanted a girl about eleven years
old. And the
matron said she thought I would do. You don't
know how
delighted I was. I couldn't sleep all last night
for joy. Oh," she added reproachfully, turning to Matthew,
"why didn't you tell me at the station that you didn't want
me and leave me there? If I hadn't seen the White Way of
Delight and the Lake of Shining Waters it wouldn't be so hard."
"What on earth does she mean?" demanded Marilla, staring
at Matthew.
"She--she's just referring to some conversation we had on
the road," said Matthew
hastily. "I'm going out to put the
mare in, Marilla. Have tea ready when I come back."
"Did Mrs. Spencer bring anybody over besides you?"
continued Marilla when Matthew had gone out.
"She brought Lily Jones for herself. Lily is only five years
old and she is very beautiful and had nut-brown hair. If I was
very beautiful and had nut-brown hair would you keep me?"
"No. We want a boy to help Matthew on the farm. A girl
would be of no use to us. Take off your hat. I'll lay it
and your bag on the hall table."
Anne took off her hat
meekly. Matthew came back
presentlyand they sat down to supper. But Anne could not eat. In
vain she nibbled at the bread and butter and pecked at the
crab-apple
preserve out of the little scalloped glass dish
by her plate. She did not really make any headway at all.
"You're not eating anything," said Marilla
sharply, eying
her as if it were a serious
shortcoming. Anne sighed.
"I can't. I'm in the depths of
despair. Can you eat when
you are in the depths of
despair?"
"I've never been in the depths of
despair, so I can't say,"
responded Marilla.
"Weren't you? Well, did you ever try to IMAGINE you were in
the depths of
despair?"
"No, I didn't."
"Then I don't think you can understand what it's like. It's
very
uncomfortable feeling indeed. When you try to eat a lump
comes right up in your
throat and you can't
swallow anything,
not even if it was a chocolate caramel. I had one chocolate
caramel once two years ago and it was simply
delicious. I've
often dreamed since then that I had a lot of chocolate caramels,
but I always wake up just when I'm going to eat them. I do hope
you won't be offended because I can't eat. Everything is
extremely nice, but still I cannot eat."
"I guess she's tired," said Matthew, who hadn't
spoken since
his return from the barn. "Best put her to bed, Marilla."
Marilla had been wondering where Anne should be put to bed.
She had prepared a couch in the kitchen
chamber for the
desired and expected boy. But, although it was neat and
clean, it did not seem quite the thing to put a girl there
somehow. But the spare room was out of the question for
such a stray waif, so there remained only the east gable
room. Marilla lighted a candle and told Anne to follow her,
which Anne spiritlessly did,
taking her hat and carpet-bag
from the hall table as she passed. The hall was fearsomely
clean; the little gable
chamber in which she
presently found
herself seemed still cleaner.
Marilla set the candle on a three-legged, three-cornered
table and turned down the bedclothes.
"I suppose you have a nightgown?" she questioned.
Anne nodded.
"Yes, I have two. The
matron of the
asylum made them for
me. They're fearfully skimpy. There is never enough to go
around in an
asylum, so things are always skimpy--at least
in a poor
asylum like ours. I hate skimpy night-dresses.
But one can dream just as well in them as in lovely trailing
ones, with frills around the neck, that's one consolation."
"Well,
undress as quick as you can and go to bed. I'll come
back in a few minutes for the candle. I daren't trust you
to put it out yourself. You'd likely set the place on fire."
When Marilla had gone Anne looked around her wistfully.
The whitewashed walls were so
painfully bare and staring
that she thought they must ache over their own bareness.
The floor was bare, too, except for a round braided mat in
the middle such as Anne had never seen before. In one corner
was the bed, a high,
old-fashioned one, with four dark, low-
turned posts. In the other corner was the aforesaid three-
corner table adorned with a fat, red
velvet pin-cushion hard
enough to turn the point of the most
adventurous pin. Above
it hung a little six-by-eight mirror. Midway between table
and bed was the window, with an icy white
muslin frill over
it, and opposite it was the wash-stand. The whole apartment
was of a rigidity not to be described in words, but which
sent a
shiver to the very
marrow of Anne's bones. With a
sob she
hastily discarded her garments, put on the skimpy
nightgown and
sprang into bed where she burrowed face
downward into the pillow and pulled the clothes over her
head. When Marilla came up for the light various skimpy
articles of
raiment scattered most untidily over the floor
and a certain tempestuous appearance of the bed were the
only indications of any presence save her own.
She
deliberately picked up Anne's clothes, placed them
neatly on a prim yellow chair, and then,
taking up the
candle, went over to the bed.
"Good night," she said, a little
awkwardly, but not unkindly.
Anne's white face and big eyes appeared over the bedclothes
with a
startling suddenness.
"How can you call it a GOOD night when you know it must be
the very worst night I've ever had?" she said reproachfully.
Then she dived down into invisibility again.
Marilla went slowly down to the kitchen and proceeded to
wash the supper dishes. Matthew was smoking--a sure sign of
perturbation of mind. He seldom smoked, for Marilla set her
face against it as a
filthy habit; but at certain times and
seasons he felt
driven to it and them Marilla winked at the
practice, realizing that a mere man must have some vent for
his emotions.
"Well, this is a pretty
kettle of fish," she said
wrathfully. "This is what comes of sending word instead of
going ourselves. Richard Spencer's folks have twisted that
message somehow. One of us will have to drive over and see
Mrs. Spencer tomorrow, that's certain. This girl will have
to be sent back to the
asylum."
"Yes, I suppose so," said Matthew
reluctantly.
"You SUPPOSE so! Don't you know it?"
"Well now, she's a real nice little thing, Marilla. It's kind of
a pity to send her back when she's so set on staying here."
"Matthew Cuthbert, you don't mean to say you think we ought
to keep her!"
Marilla's
astonishment could not have been greater if Matthew had
expressed a predilection for
standing on his head.
"Well, now, no, I suppose not--not exactly," stammered Matthew,