or deprecation. What she did say was a surprise to herself
then and ever afterwards.
"You shouldn't have twitted her about her looks, Rachel."
"Marilla Cuthbert, you don't mean to say that you are
upholding her in such a terrible display of
temper as we've
just seen?" demanded Mrs. Rachel
indignantly.
"No," said Marilla slowly, "I'm not
trying to excuse her. She's
been very
naughty and I'll have to give her a talking to about
it. But we must make allowances for her. She's never been
taught what is right. And you WERE too hard on her, Rachel."
Marilla could not help tacking on that last sentence,
although she was again surprised at herself for doing it.
Mrs. Rachel got up with an air of offended dignity.
"Well, I see that I'll have to be very careful what I say
after this, Marilla, since the fine feelings of orphans,
brought from
goodness knows where, have to be considered
before anything else. Oh, no, I'm not vexed--don't worry
yourself. I'm too sorry for you to leave any room for anger
in my mind. You'll have your own troubles with that child.
But if you'll take my advice--which I suppose you won't
do, although I've brought up ten children and buried
two--you'll do that `talking to' you mention with a fair-
sized birch
switch. I should think THAT would be the most
effective language for that kind of a child. Her
tempermatches her hair I guess. Well, good evening, Marilla.
I hope you'll come down to see me often as usual. But you
can't expect me to visit here again in a hurry, if I'm
liable to be flown at and insulted in such a fashion.
It's something new in MY experience."
Whereat Mrs. Rachel swept out and away--if a fat woman who
always waddled COULD be said to sweep away--and Marilla with
a very
solemn face betook herself to the east gable.
On the way
upstairs she pondered
uneasily as to what
she ought to do. She felt no little
dismay over the
scene that had just been enacted. How
unfortunate that
Anne should have displayed such
temper before Mrs. Rachel
Lynde, of all people! Then Marilla suddenly became aware
of an
uncomfortable and rebuking
consciousness that she
felt more
humiliation over this than sorrow over the
discovery of such a serious
defect in Anne's disposition.
And how was she to
punish her? The
amiablesuggestion of
the birch
switch--to the
efficiency of which all of Mrs.
Rachel's own children could have borne smarting testimony--
did not
appeal to Marilla. She did not believe she could
whip a child. No, some other method of
punishment must
be found to bring Anne to a proper
realization of the
enormity of her offense.
Marilla found Anne face
downward on her bed, crying
bitterly, quite oblivious of muddy boots on a clean
counterpane.
"Anne," she said not ungently.
No answer.
"Anne," with greater
severity, "get off that bed this
minute and listen to what I have to say to you."
Anne squirmed off the bed and sat
rigidly on a chair
beside it, her face
swollen and tear-stained and her eyes
fixed
stubbornly on the floor.
"This is a nice way for you to
behave. Anne! Aren't you
ashamed of yourself?"
"She hadn't any right to call me ugly and redheaded,"
retorted Anne, evasive and defiant.
"You hadn't any right to fly into such a fury and talk the
way you did to her, Anne. I was
ashamed of you--
thoroughly
ashamed of you. I wanted you to
behave nicely
to Mrs. Lynde, and instead of that you have disgraced me.
I'm sure I don't know why you should lose your
temperlike that just because Mrs. Lynde said you were redhaired
and
homely. You say it yourself often enough."
"Oh, but there's such a difference between
saying a
thing yourself and
hearing other people say it," wailed
Anne. "You may know a thing is so, but you can't help
hoping other people don't quite think it is. I suppose you
think I have an awful
temper, but I couldn't help it.
When she said those things something just rose right up in
me and choked me. I HAD to fly out at her."
"Well, you made a fine
exhibition of yourself I must say.
Mrs. Lynde will have a nice story to tell about you
everywhere--and she'll tell it, too. It was a
dreadful thing
for you to lose your
temper like that, Anne."
"Just imagine how you would feel if somebody told you to your
face that you were skinny and ugly," pleaded Anne tearfully.
An old
remembrance suddenly rose up before Marilla.
She had been a very small child when she had heard one
aunt say of her to another, "What a pity she is such a dark,
homely little thing." Marilla was every day of fifty before
the sting had gone out of that memory.
"I don't say that I think Mrs. Lynde was exactly right in
saying what she did to you, Anne," she admitted in a softer
tone. "Rachel is too outspoken. But that is no excuse for
such
behavior on your part. She was a stranger and an
elderly person and my visitor--all three very good reasons
why you should have been
respectful to her. You were
rude and saucy and"--Marilla had a saving
inspiration of
punishment--"you must go to her and tell her you are
very sorry for your bad
temper and ask her to
forgive you."
"I can never do that," said Anne determinedly and darkly.
"You can
punish me in any way you like, Marilla. You can
shut me up in a dark, damp
dungeon inhabited by snakes
and toads and feed me only on bread and water and I shall
not
complain. But I cannot ask Mrs. Lynde to
forgive me."
"We're not in the habit of shutting people up in dark
damp
dungeons," said Marilla drily, "especially as they're
rather
scarce in Avonlea. But apologize to Mrs. Lynde
you must and shall and you'll stay here in your room until
you can tell me you're
willing to do it."
"I shall have to stay here forever then," said Anne
mournfully, "because I can't tell Mrs. Lynde I'm sorry I
said those things to her. How can I? I'm NOT sorry. I'm
sorry I've vexed you; but I'm GLAD I told her just what I did.
It was a great
satisfaction. I can't say I'm sorry when I'm
not, can I? I can't even IMAGINE I'm sorry."
"Perhaps your
imagination will be in better working
order by the morning," said Marilla, rising to depart.
"You'll have the night to think over your conduct in and
come to a better frame of mind. You said you would try
to be a very good girl if we kept you at Green Gables, but
I must say it hasn't seemed very much like it this evening."
Leaving this Parthian shaft to rankle in Anne's stormy
bosom, Marilla descended to the kitchen, grievously
troubled in mind and vexed in soul. She was as angry with
herself as with Anne, because,
whenever she recalled Mrs.
Rachel's dumbfounded
countenance her lips twitched with
amusement and she felt a most reprehensible desire to laugh.