How did she, struggling to abase
Herself to do me strange, sweet grace,
Enforce unwitting me to share
Her throes and abjectness with her;
Thence heightening that hour when her lover
Her grace, with trembling, should discover,
And in adoring trouble be
Humbled at her humility!
And with what pitilessness was I
After slain, to pacify
The
uneasy manes of her shame,
Her haunting blushes!--Mine the blame:
What fair
injustice did I rue
For what I--did not tempt her to?
Nor aught the judging maid might win
Me to assoil from HER sweet sin.
But
nought were
extremepunishment
For that beyond-divine content,
When my with-thee-first-giddied eyes
Stooped ere their due on Paradise!
O hour of consternating bliss
When I heavened me in thy kiss;
Thy
softness (daring overmuch!)
Profan-ed with my licensed touch;
Worshipped, with tears, on happy knee,
Her doubt, her trust, her shyness free,
Her timorous audacity!
LOVE DECLARED.
I looked, she drooped, and neither spake, and cold,
We stood, how
unlike all forecasted thought
Of that desir-ed minute! Then I leaned
Doubting;
whereat she lifted--oh, brave eyes
Unfrighted:--forward like a wind-blown flame
Came bosom and mouth to mine!
That falling kiss
Touching long-laid expectance, all went up
Suddenly into
passion; yea, the night
Caught, blazed, and wrapt us round in vibrant fire.
Time's
beating wing subsided, and the winds
Caught up their
breathing, and the world's great pulse
Stayed in mid-throb, and the wild train of life
Reeled by, and left us stranded on a hush.
This moment is a
statue unto Love
Carved from a fair white silence.
Lo, he stands
Within us--are we not one now, one, one roof,
His roof, and the
partition of weak flesh
Gone down before him, and no more, for ever?--
Stands like a bird new-lit, and as he lit,
Poised in our quiet being; only, only
Within our
shaken hearts the air of
passion,
Cleft by his sudden coming, eddies still
And whirs round his enchanted movelessness.
A film of
trance between two stirrings! Lo,
It bursts; yet dream's snapped links cling round the limbs
Of waking: like a
running evening stream
Which no man hears, or sees, or knows to run,
(Glazed with dim quiet), save that there the moon
Is shattered to a
creamyflicker of flame,
Our eyes' sweet trouble were hid, save that the love
Trembles a little on their im
passioned calms.
THE WAY OF A MAID.
The lover whose soul
shaken is
In some decuman
billow of bliss,
Who feels his gradual-wading feet
Sink in some sudden hollow of sweet,
And 'mid love's us-ed
converse comes
Sharp on a mood which all joy sums--
An instant's fine compendium of
The liberal-leav-ed writ of love;
His abashed pulses
beating thick
At the exigent joy and quick,
Is dumbed, by aiming
utterance great
Up to the
miracle of his fate.
The wise girl, such Icarian fall
Saved by her confidence that she's small,--
As what no
kindred word will fit
Is uttered best by opposite,
Love in the tongue of hate exprest,
And deepest
anguish in a jest,--
Feeling the
infinite must be
Best said by triviality,
Speaks, where expression bates its wings,
Just happy, alien, little things;
What of all words is in excess
Implies in a sweet nothingness,
With dailiest
babble shows her sense
That full speech were full impotence;
And while she feels the heavens lie bare,
She only talks about her hair.
BEGINNING OF END.
She was aweary of the hovering
Of Love's
incessant tumultuous wing;
Her lover's tokens she would answer not--
'Twere well she should be strange with him somewhat:
A pretty babe, this Love,--but fie on it,
That would not suffer her lay it down a whit!
Appointed tryst defiantly she balked,
And with her lightest comrade
lightly walked,
Who scared the chidden Love to hide apart,
And peep from some unnoticed corner of her heart.
She thought not of her lover, deem it not
(There yonder, in the hollow, that's HIS cot),
But she forgot not that he was forgot.
She saw him at his gate, yet stilled her tongue--
So weak she felt her, that she would feel strong,
And she must
punish him for doing him wrong:
Passed, unoblivious of
oblivion still;
And if she turned upon the brow o' the hill,
It was so
openly, so
lightly done,
You saw she thought he was not thought upon.
He through the gate went back in bitterness;
She that night woke and stirred, with no distress,
Glad of her doing,--sedulous to be glad,
Lest perhaps her foolish heart
suspect that it was sad.
PENELOPE.
Love, like a wind, shook wide your blosmy eyes,
You trembled, and your
breath came sobbing-wise
For that you loved me.
You were so kind, so sweet, none could withhold
To adore, but that you were so strange, so cold;
For that you loved me.
Like to a box of spikenard did you break
Your heart about my feet. What words you spake!
For that you loved me.
Life fell to dust without me; so you tried
All carefullest ways to drive me from your side,
For that you loved me.
You gave yourself as children give, that weep
And
snatch back, with--'I meant you not to keep!'
For that you loved me.
I am no woman, girl, nor ever knew
That love could teach all ways that hate could do
To her that loved me.
Have less of love, or less of woman in
Your love, or loss may even from this begin--
That you so love me.
For, wild Penelope, the web you wove
You still unweave, unloving all your love;
Is this to love me,
Or what rights have I that scorn could deny?
Even of your love, alas, poor Love must die,
If so you love me!
THE END OF IT.
She did not love to love; but hated him
For making her to love, and so her whim
From
passion taught misprision to begin;
And all this sin
Was because love to cast out had no skill
Self, which was
regent still.
Her own self-will made void her own self's will
EPILOGUE.
If I have
studied here in part
A tale as old as maiden's heart,
'Tis that I do see herein
Shadow of more piteous sin.
She, that but giving part, not whole,
Took even the part back, is the Soul:
And that so disdain-ed Lover--
Best unthought, since Love is over.
Love to invite, desire, and fear,
And Love's exactions cost too dear
Count for Love's possession,--ah,
Thy way, misera Anima!
To give the
pledge, and yet be pined
That a
pledge should have force to bind,
This, O Soul, too often still
Is the recreance of thy will!
Out of Love's arms to make fond chain,
And, because struggle bringeth pain,
Hate Love for Love's sweet constraint,
Is the way of Souls that faint.
Such a Soul, for saddest end,
Finds Love the foe in Love the friend;
And--ah, grief incredible!--
Treads the way of Heaven, to Hell.
MISCELLANEOUS ODES.
ODE TO THE SETTING SUN.
PRELUDE.
The wailful
sweetness of the violin
Floats down the hush-ed waters of the wind,
The heart-strings of the throbbing harp begin
To long in aching music. Spirit-pined,
In wafts that poignant
sweetness drifts, until
The wounded soul ooze
sadness. The red sun,
A
bubble of fire, drops slowly toward the hill,
While one bird prattles that the day is done.
O
setting Sun, that as in reverent days
Sinkest in music to thy smooth-ed sleep,
Discrowned of
homage, though yet crowned with rays,
Hymned not at
harvest more, though reapers reap:
For thee this music wakes not. O deceived,
If thou hear in these
thoughtless harmonies
A pious
phantom of adorings reaved,
And echo of fair ancient flatteries!
Yet, in this field where the Cross planted reigns,
I know not what strange
passion bows my head
To thee, whose great command upon my veins
Proves thee a god for me not dead, not dead!
For
worship it is too incredulous,
For doubt--oh, too believing-
passionate!