He felt the wild beast in him betweenwhiles
So masterfully rude, that he would grieve
To see the
helplessdelicate thing receive
His guardianship through certain dark defiles.
Had he not teeth to rend, and
hunger too?
But still he spared her. Once: 'Have you no fear?'
He said: 'twas dusk; she in his grasp; none near.
She laughed: 'No, surely; am I not with you?'
And uttering that soft
starry 'you,' she leaned
Her gentle body near him, looking up;
And from her eyes, as from a poison-cup,
He drank until the flittering eyelids screened.
Devilish
malignant witch! and oh, young beam
Of heaven's circle-glory! Here thy shape
To
squeeze like an intoxicating grape -
I might, and yet thou goest safe, supreme.
X
But where began the change; and what's my crime?
The
wretch condemned, who has not been arraigned,
Chafes at his
sentence. Shall I, unsustained,
Drag on Love's
nerveless body thro' all time?
I must have slept, since now I wake. Prepare,
You lovers, to know Love a thing of moods:
Not, like hard life, of laws. In Love's deep woods,
I dreamt of loyal Life:- the offence is there!
Love's
jealous woods about the sun are curled;
At least, the sun far brighter there did beam. -
My crime is, that the
puppet of a dream,
I plotted to be
worthy of the world.
Oh, had I with my
darling helped to mince
The facts of life, you still had seen me go
With hindward
feather and with forward toe,
Her much-adored
delightful Fairy Prince!
XI
Out in the yellow meadows, where the bee
Hums by us with the honey of the Spring,
And
showers of sweet notes from the larks on wing
Are dropping like a noon-dew,
wander we.
Or is it now? or was it then? for now,
As then, the larks from
running rings pour
showers:
The golden foot of May is on the flowers,
And friendly shadows dance upon her brow.
What's this, when Nature swears there is no change
To
challenge eyesight? Now, as then, the grace
Of heaven seems
holding earth in its embrace.
Nor eyes, nor heart, has she to feel it strange?
Look, woman, in the West. There wilt thou see
An amber
cradle near the sun's decline:
Within it, featured even in death divine,
Is lying a dead
infant, slain by thee.
XII
Not
solely that the Future she destroys,
And the fair life which in the distance lies
For all men, beckoning out from dim rich skies:
Nor that the passing hour's supporting joys
Have lost the keen-edged flavour, which begat
Distinction in old times, and still should breed
Sweet Memory, and Hope,--earth's
modest seed,
And heaven's high-prompting: not that the world is flat
Since that soft-luring creature I embraced
Among the children of Illusion went:
Methinks with all this loss I were content,
If the mad Past, on which my foot is based,
Were firm, or might be blotted: but the whole
Of life is mixed: the mocking Past will stay:
And if I drink
oblivion of a day,
So
shorten I the
stature of my soul.
XIII
'I play for Seasons; not Eternities!'
Says Nature, laughing on her way. 'So must
All those whose stake is nothing more than dust!'
And lo, she wins, and of her harmonies
She is full sure! Upon her dying rose
She drops a look of
fondness, and goes by,
Scarce any retrospection in her eye;
For she the laws of growth most deeply knows,
Whose hands bear, here, a seed-bag--there, an urn.
Pledged she herself to aught, 'twould mark her end!
This lesson of our only
visible friend
Can we not teach our foolish hearts to learn?
Yes! yes!--but, oh, our human rose is fair
Surpassingly! Lose
calmly Love's great bliss,
When the renewed for ever of a kiss
Whirls life within the
shower of loosened hair!
XIV
What soul would
bargain for a cure that brings
Contempt the nobler agony to kill?
Rather let me bear on the bitter ill,
And strike this rusty bosom with new stings!
It seems there is another veering fit,
Since on a gold-haired lady's eyeballs pure
I looked with little
prospect of a cure,
The while her mouth's red bow loosed shafts of wit.
Just heaven! can it be true that
jealousy
Has decked the woman thus? and does her head
Swim somewhat for possessions forfeited?
Madam, you teach me many things that be.
I open an old book, and there I find
That 'Women still may love whom they deceive.'
Such love I prize not, madam: by your leave,
The game you play at is not to my mind.
XV
I think she sleeps: it must be sleep, when low
Hangs that
abandoned arm toward the floor;
The face turned with it. Now make fast the door.
Sleep on: it is your husband, not your foe.
The Poet's black stage-lion of wronged love
Frights not our modern dames:- well if he did!
Now will I pour new light upon that lid,
Full-sloping like the breasts beneath. 'Sweet dove,
Your sleep is pure. Nay,
pardon: I disturb.
I do not? good!' Her waking
infant-stare
Grows woman to the burden my hands bear:
Her own
handwriting to me when no curb
Was left on Passion's tongue. She trembles through;
A woman's tremble--the whole instrument:-
I show another letter
lately sent.
The words are very like: the name is new.
XVI
In our old shipwrecked days there was an hour,
When in the firelight
steadily aglow,
Joined slackly, we
beheld the red chasm grow
Among the clicking coals. Our library-bower
That eve was left to us: and hushed we sat
As lovers to whom Time is whispering.
From sudden-opened doors we heard them sing:
The nodding elders mixed good wine with chat.
Well knew we that Life's greatest treasure lay
With us, and of it was our talk. 'Ah, yes!
Love dies!' I said: I never thought it less.
She yearned to me that
sentence to unsay.
Then when the fire domed blackening, I found
Her cheek was salt against my kiss, and swift
Up the sharp scale of sobs her breast did lift:-
Now am I
haunted by that taste! that sound!
XVII
At dinner, she is
hostess, I am host.
Went the feast ever cheerfuller? She keeps
The Topic over
intellectual deeps
In buoyancy
afloat. They see no ghost.
With sparkling surface-eyes we ply the ball:
It is in truth a most
contagious game:
HIDING THE SKELETON, shall be its name.
Such play as this the devils might appal!
But here's the greater wonder; in that we,
Enamoured of an
actingnought can tire,
Each other, like true hypocrites, admire;
Warm-lighted looks, Love's ephemerioe,
Shoot gaily o'er the dishes and the wine.
We waken envy of our happy lot.
Fast, sweet, and golden, shows the marriage-knot.
Dear guests, you now have seen Love's corpse-light shine.
XVIII
Here Jack and Tom are paired with Moll and Meg.
Curved open to the river-reach is seen
A country merry-making on the green.
Fair space for signal shakings of the leg.
That little screwy fiddler from his booth,
Whence flows one nut-brown
stream, commands the joints
Of all who caper here at various points.
I have known
rustic revels in my youth:
The May-fly pleasures of a mind at ease.
An early
goddess was a country lass:
A charmed Amphion-oak she tripped the grass.
What life was that I lived? The life of these?
Heaven keep them happy! Nature they seem near.
They must, I think, be wiser than I am;
They have the secret of the bull and lamb.
'Tis true that when we trace its source, 'tis beer.
XIX
No state is enviable. To the luck alone
Of some few
favoured men I would put claim.
I bleed, but her who wounds I will not blame.
Have I not felt her heart as 'twere my own
Beat thro' me? could I hurt her? heaven and hell!
But I could hurt her cruelly! Can I let
My Love's old time-piece to another set,
Swear it can't stop, and must for ever swell?
Sure, that's one way Love drifts into the mart
Where goat-legged buyers
throng. I see not plain:-
My meaning is, it must not be again.
Great God! the maddest
gambler throws his heart.
If any state be enviable on earth,
'Tis yon born idiot's, who, as days go by,
Still rubs his hands before him, like a fly,
In a queer sort of meditative mirth.
XX
I am not of those
miserable males
Who sniff at vice and,
daring not to snap,
Do
therefore hope for heaven. I take the hap
Of all my deeds. The wind that fills my sails
Propels; but I am helmsman. Am I wrecked,
I know the devil has sufficient weight
To bear: I lay it not on him, or fate.
Besides, he's
damned. That man I do suspect
A
coward, who would burden the poor deuce
With what ensues from his own slipperiness.
I have just found a wanton-scented tress
In an old desk, dusty for lack of use.
Of days and nights it is demonstrative,
That, like some aged star, gleam luridly.