covering of skin as the days went on. But the lack of salads and
gruels I could never
overcome. All the green meat was tainted so
powerfully with the taste of tars that never could I force my
palate to accept it. And of course, too, there remained the peril
of the greater
lizards and the other dangers native to the place.
But as the months began to mount into years, and the brute
part of my nature became more satisfied, there came other
longings
which it was less easy to provide for. From the ivory of a river
horse's tooth I had endeavoured to carve me a representative of
Nais as last I had seen her. But, though my fingers might be
loving, and my will good, my art was of the dullest, and the
result--though I tried time and time again--was always
clumsy and
pitiful. Still, in my eyes it carried some
suggestion of the
original--a curve here, an
outline there, and it made my old love
glow anew within me as I sat and ate it with my eyes. Yet it did
little to satisfy my
longings for the woman I had lost; rather
it whetted my cravings to be with her again, or at least to have
some knowledge of her fate.
Other men of the Priests' Clan have come out and made an abode
in these Dangerous Lands, and by mortifying the flesh, have gained
an
intimacy with the Higher Mysteries which has carried them far
past what mere human
learning and
repetition could teach. Indeed,
here and there one, who from some cause and another has returned to
the abodes of men, has carried with him a knowledge that has
brought him the
reputationamongst the
vulgar for the workings of
magic and miracles, which--since all arts must be allowed which aid
so holy a cause--have added very
materially to the
ardour with
which these common people
pursue the cult of the Gods. But for
myself I could not free my mind to the necessary
clearness for
following these abstruse studies. During that
voyage home from
Yucatan I had communed with them with growing
insight; but now my
mind was not my own. Nais had a lien upon it, and refused to be
ousted; and, in truth, her sweet
trespass was my chief solace.
But at last my
longing could no further be denied. Through
one of the arrow-slit windows of my tree-house I could see far away
a great mountain top whitened with
perpetual snow, which our Lord
the Sun dyed with blood every night of His
setting. Night after
night I used to watch that ruddy light with wide
straining eyes.
Night after night I used to remember that in days agone when I was
entering upon the priesthood, it had been my duty to adore our
great Lord as He rose for His day behind the snows of that very
mountain. And always the thought followed on these musings, that
from that distant crest I could see across the
continent to the
Sacred Mount, which had the city below it where I had buried my
love alive.
So at last I gave way and set out, and a
perilous journey I
made of it. In the heavy mists, which hung always on the lower
ground, my way lay blind before me, and I was
constantly losing it.
Indeed, to say that I traversed three times the direct distance is
setting a low
estimate. Throughout all those swamps the great
lizards hunted, and as the country was new to me I did not know
places of harbour, and a hundred times was within an ace of being
spied and devoured at a
mouthful. But the High Gods still desired
me for Their own purposes, and blinded the great beasts' eyes when
I slunk to cover as they passed. Twice rivers of scalding water
roared boiling across my path, and I had to delay till I could
collect enough black
timber from the forests to build rafts that
would give me dry ferriage.
It will be seen then that my journey was in a way infinitely
tedious, but to me, after all those years of
waiting, the time
passed on
winged feet. I had been separated from my love till I
could bear the
strain no longer; let me but see from a distance the
place where she lay, and feast my eyes upon it for a while, and
then I could go back to my abode in the tree and there remain
patiently a
waiting the will of the Gods.
The air grew more
chilly as I began to come out above the
region of trees, on to that higher ground which glares down on the
rest of the world, and I made buskins and a coat of woven grasses
to protect my body from the cold, which began to blow upon me
keenly. And later on, where the snow lay
eternally, and was blown