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READER, I married him. A quiet wedding we had: he and I, the parson

and clerk, were alone present. When we got back from church, I went

into the kitchen of the manor-house, where Mary was cooking the dinner

and John cleaning the knives, and I said-

'Mary, I have been married to Mr. Rochester this morning.' The

housekeeper and her husband were both of that decent phlegmatic

order of people, to whom one may at any time safely communicate a

remarkable piece of news without incurring the danger of having

one's ears pierced by some shrill ejaculation, and subsequently

stunned by a torrent of wordy wonderment. Mary did look up, and she

did stare at me: the ladle with which she was basting a pair of

chickens roasting at the fire, did for some three minutes hang

suspended in air; and for the same space of time John's knives also

had rest from the polishing process: but Mary, bending again over

the roast, said only-

'Have you, Miss? Well, for sure!'

A short time after she pursued- 'I seed you go out with the master,

but I didn't know you were gone to church to be wed;' and she basted

away. John, when I turned to him, was grinning from ear to ear.

'I telled Mary how it would be,' he said: 'I knew what Mr.

Edward' (John was an old servant, and had known his master when he was

the cadet of the house, therefore, he often gave him his Christian

name)- 'I knew what Mr. Edward would do; and I was certain he would

not wait long neither: and he's done right, for aught I know. I wish

you joy, Miss!' and he politely pulled his forelock.

'Thank you, John. Mr. Rochester told me to give you and Mary this.'

I put into his hand a five-pound note. Without waiting to hear more, I

left the kitchen. In passing the door of that sanctum some time after,

I caught the words-

'She'll happen do better for him nor ony o' t' grand ladies.' And

again, 'If she ben't one o' th' handsomest, she's noan faal and

varry good-natured; and i' his een she's fair beautiful, onybody may

see that.'

I wrote to Moor House and to Cambridge immediately, to say what I

had done: fully explaining also why I had thus acted. Diana and Mary

approved the step unreservedly. Diana announced that she would just

give me time to get over the honeymoon, and then she would come and

see me.

'She had better not wait till then, Jane,' said Mr. Rochester, when

I read her letter to him; 'if she does, she will be too late, for

our honeymoon will shine our life long: its beams will only fade

over your grave or mine.'

How St. John received the news, I don't know: he never answered the

letter in which I communicated it: yet six months after he wrote to

me, without, however, mentioning Mr. Rochester's name or alluding to

my marriage. His letter was then calm, and, though very serious, kind.

He has maintained a regular, though not frequent, correspondence

ever since: he hopes I am happy, and trusts I am not of those who live

without God in the world, and only mind earthly things.

You have not quite forgotten little Adele, have you, reader? I

had not; I soon asked and obtained leave of Mr. Rochester, to go and

see her at the school where he had placed her. Her frantic joy at

beholding me again moved me much. She looked pale and thin: she said

she was not happy. I found the rules of the establishment were too

strict, its course of study too severe for a child of her age: I

took her home with me. I meant to become her governess once more,

but I soon found this impracticable; my time and cares were now

required by another- my husband needed them all. So I sought out a

school conducted on a more indulgent system, and near enough to permit

of my visiting her often, and bringing her home sometimes. I took care

she should never want for anything that could contribute to her

comfort: she soon settled in her new abode, became very happy there,

and made fair progress in her studies. As she grew up, a sound English

education corrected in a great measure her French defects; and when

she left school, I found in her a pleasing and obliging companion:

docile, good-tempered, and well-principled. By her grateful

attention to me and mine, she has long since well repaid any little

kindness I ever had it in my power to offer her.

My tale draws to its close: one word respecting my experience of

married life, and one brief glance at the fortunes of those whose

names have most frequently recurred in this narrative, and I have

done.

I have now been married ten years. I know what it is to live

entirely for and with what I love best on earth. I hold myself

supremely blest- blest beyond what language can express; because I

am my husband's life as fully as he is mine. No woman was ever

nearer to her mate than I am: ever more absolutely bone of his bone

and flesh of his flesh. I know no weariness of my Edward's society: he

knows none of mine, any more than we each do of the pulsation of the

heart that beats in our separate bosoms; consequently, we are ever

together. To be together is for us to be at once as free as in

solitude, as gay as in company. We talk, I believe, all day long: to

talk to each other is but a more animated and an audible thinking. All

my confidence is bestowed on him, all his confidence is devoted to me;

we are precisely suited in character-perfect concord is the result.

Mr. Rochester continued blind the first two years of our union:

perhaps it was that circumstance that drew us so very near- that

knit us so very close: for I was then his vision, as I am still his

right hand. Literally, I was (what he often called me) the apple of

his eye. He saw nature- he saw books through me; and never did I weary

of gazing for his behalf, and of putting into words the effect of

field, tree, town, river, cloud, sunbeam- of the landscape before

us; of the weather round us- and impressing by sound on his ear what

light could no longer stamp on his eye. Never did I weary of reading

to him; never did I weary of conducting him where he wished to go:

of doing for him what he wished to be done. And there was a pleasure

in my services, most full, most exquisite, even though sad- because he

claimed these services without painful shame or damping humiliation.

He loved me so truly, that he knew no reluctance in profiting by my

attendance: he felt I loved him so fondly, that to yield that

attendance was to indulge my sweetest wishes.

One morning at the end of the two years, as I was writing a

letter to his dictation, he came and bent over me, and said-

'Jane, have you a glittering ornament round your neck?'

I had a gold watch-chain: I answered 'Yes.'

'And have you a pale-blue dress on?'

I had. He informed me then, that for some time he had fancied the

obscurity clouding one eye was becoming less dense; and that now he

was sure of it.

He and I went up to London. He had the advice of an eminent

oculist; and he eventually recovered the sight of that one eye. He

cannot now see very distinctly: he cannot read or write much; but he

can find his way without being led by the hand: the sky is no longer a

blank to him- the earth no longer a void. When his first-born was

put into his arms, he could see that the boy had inherited his own

eyes, as they once were- large, brilliant, and black. On that

occasion, he again, with a full heart, acknowledged that God had

tempered judgment with mercy.

My Edward and I, then, are happy: and the more so, because those we

most love are happy likewise. Diana and Mary Rivers are both

married: alternately, once every year, they come to see us, and we

go to see them. Diana's husband is a captain in the navy, a gallant

officer and a good man. Mary's is a clergyman, a college friend of her

brother's, and, from his attainments and principles, worthy of the

connection. Both Captain Fitzjames and Mr. Wharton love their wives,

and are loved by them.

As to St. John Rivers, he left England: he went to India. He

entered on the path he had marked for himself; he pursues it still.

A more resolute, indefatigable pioneer never wrought amidst rocks

and dangers. Firm, faithful, and devoted, full of energy, and zeal,

and truth, he labours for his race; he clears their painful way to

improvement; he hews down like a giant the prejudices of creed and

caste that encumber it. He may be stern; he may be exacting; he may be

ambitious yet; but his is the sternness of the warrior Greatheart, who

guards his pilgrim convoy from the onslaught of Apollyon. His is the

exaction of the apostle, who speaks but for Christ, when he says-

'Whosoever will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his

cross and follow me.' His is the ambition of the high master-spirit,

which aims to fill a place in the first rank of those who are redeemed

from the earth- who stand without fault before the throne of God,

who share the last mighty victories of the Lamb, who are called, and

chosen, and faithful.

St. John is unmarried: he never will marry now. Himself has

hitherto sufficed to the toil, and the toil draws near its close:

his glorious sun hastens to its setting. The last letter I received

from him drew from my eyes human tears, and yet filled my heart with

divine joy: he anticipated his sure reward, his incorruptible crown. I

know that a stranger's hand will write to me next, to say that the

good and faithful servant has been called at length into the joy of

his Lord. And why weep for this? No fear of death will darken St.

John's last hour: his mind will be unclouded, his heart will be

undaunted, his hope will be sure, his faith steadfast. His own words

are a pledge of this-

'My Master,' he says, 'has forewarned me. Daily He announces more

distinctly,- "Surely I come quickly!" and hourly I more eagerly

respond,- "Amen; even so come, Lord Jesus!"'


THE END




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生词表:
  • knives [naivz] 移动到这儿单词发声 knife的复数 四级词汇
  • good-natured [´gud-´neitʃəd] 移动到这儿单词发声 a.脾气好的,温厚的 四级词汇
  • honeymoon [´hʌnimu:n] 移动到这儿单词发声 n.蜜月 四级词汇
  • governess [´gʌvənis] 移动到这儿单词发声 n.女家庭教师 六级词汇
  • impracticable [im´præktikəbəl] 移动到这儿单词发声 a.不切实际的 六级词汇
  • respecting [ri´spektiŋ] 移动到这儿单词发声 prep.由于;鉴于 六级词汇
  • weariness [wiərinis] 移动到这儿单词发声 n.疲倦;厌烦 四级词汇
  • animated [´ænimeitid] 移动到这儿单词发声 a.栩栩如生的;活跃的 六级词汇
  • audible [´ɔ:dibəl] 移动到这儿单词发声 a.听得见的 四级词汇
  • devoted [di´vəutid] 移动到这儿单词发声 a.献身...的,忠实的 四级词汇
  • humiliation [hju:,mili´eiʃən] 移动到这儿单词发声 n.羞辱,屈辱 六级词汇
  • reluctance [ri´lʌktəns] 移动到这儿单词发声 n.不愿;勉强 六级词汇
  • fondly [´fɔndli] 移动到这儿单词发声 ad.喜爱地;愚蠢地 四级词汇
  • obscurity [əb´skjuəriti] 移动到这儿单词发声 n.暗(淡);朦胧;含糊 四级词汇
  • eventually [i´ventʃuəli] 移动到这儿单词发声 ad.最后,终于 四级词汇
  • alternately [ɔ:l´tə:nitli] 移动到这儿单词发声 ad.交替地,轮流地 四级词汇
  • resolute [´rezəlu:t] 移动到这儿单词发声 a.坚决的;不屈不挠的 四级词汇
  • amidst [ə´midst] 移动到这儿单词发声 prep.=amid 四级词汇
  • exacting [ig´zæktiŋ] 移动到这儿单词发声 a.苛求的;严格的 六级词汇
  • apostle [ə´pɔsəl] 移动到这儿单词发声 n.传道者 四级词汇
  • unmarried [,ʌn´mærid] 移动到这儿单词发声 a.未婚的,独身的 四级词汇
  • setting [´setiŋ] 移动到这儿单词发声 n.安装;排字;布景 四级词汇
  • steadfast [´stedfɑ:st, -fæst] 移动到这儿单词发声 a.坚定的,不动摇的 六级词汇



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