he was careful not to
prolong his visit beyond the limits of strict
etiquette. His name, Boris Alexeivitch, only revealed to his
guests the name of his father, without his rank; and when he stated
that he was employed in one of the Departments, (which was true in
a
measure, for he was a staff officer,) they could only look upon
him as being, at best, a member of some family whose recent
elevation to the
nobility did not
release them from the necessity
of Government service. Of course he employed the usual pretext of
wishing to study music, and either by that or some other stratagem
managed to leave matters in such a shape that a second visit could
not occasion surprise.
As the sled glided
homewards over the crackling snow, he was
obliged to
confess the
existence of a new and powerful excitement.
Was it the chance of an adventure, such as certain of his comrades
were
continually seeking? He thought not; no,
decidedly not. Was
it--could it be--love? He really could not tell; he had not the
slightset idea what love was like.
VI.
It was something at least, that the plastic and not un-virtuous
nature of the young man was directed towards a
definite object.
The elements out of which he was made, although somewhat diluted,
were active enough to make him
uncomfortable, so long as they
remained in a confused state. He had very little power of
introversion, but he was
sensible that his
temperament was
changing,--that he grew more
cheerful and
contented with life,--
that a chasm somewhere was filling up,--just in pro
portion as
his
acquaintance with the old music-master and his daughter became
more familiar. His visits were made so brief, were so adroitly
timed and accounted for by circumstances, that by the close of Lent
he could feel justified in making the Easter call of a friend, and
claim its
attendant privileges, without fear of being repulsed.
That Easter call was an era in his life. At the risk of his wealth
and rank being
suspected, he dressed himself in new and rich
garments, and
hurried away towards the Smolnoi. The old nurse,
Katinka, in her
scarlet gown, opened the door for him, and was the
first to say, "Christ is arisen!" What could he do but give her
the usual kiss? Formerly he had kissed hundreds of serfs, men and
women, on the
sacredanniversary, with a
passive good-will. But
Katinka's kiss seemed bitter, and he
secretly rubbed his mouth
after it. The music-master came next: grisly though he might be,
he was the St. Peter who stood at the gate of heaven. Then entered
Helena, in white, like an angel. He took her hand,
pronounced the
Easter greeting, and scarcely waited for the answer, "Truly he has
arisen!" before his lips found the way to hers. For a second they
warmly trembled and glowed together; and in another second some new
and sweet and subtle relation seemed to be established between
their natures.
That night Prince Boris wrote a long letter to his "chere maman,"
in piquantly misspelt French, giving her the
gossip of the court,
and such family news as she usually craved. The
purport of the
letter, however, was only disclosed in the final
paragraph, and
then in so
negative a way that it is
doubtful whether the Princess
Martha fully understood it.
"Poing de mariajes pour moix!" he wrote,--but we will drop the
original,--"I don't think of such a thing yet. Pashkoff dropped a
hint, the other day, but I kept my eyes shut. Perhaps you remember
her?--fat, thick lips, and
crooked teeth. Natalie D---- said to
me, "Have you ever been in love, Prince?" HAVE I, MAMAN? I did
not know what answer to make. What is love? How does one feel,
when one has it? They laugh at it here, and of course I should not
wish to do what is laughable. Give me a hint: forewarned is
forearmed, you know,"--etc., etc.
Perhaps the Princess Martha DID
suspect something; perhaps some
word in her son's letter touched a secret spot far back in her
memory, and renewed a dim, if not very intelligible, pain. She
answered his question at length, in the style of the popular French